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[22 Nov 2007|03:44pm] |
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Hula hoops and all the waists that twirl them. Corn pudding [which is actually casserole] which is a party for my taste buds. Mittens and scarves, which to a Floridian are [generally] strictly fashionable. Dusty, forgotten, old books being reopened and making us forget about our computers and televisions. Walking barefoot in the grass and pouncing on leaves. Everyone being able to talk over each other out of excitement. Drawing pencils wearing down to the nub from excessive use. Every single one of my current, past, or future friends. They make me who I am.
Pen pals in Ireland.
Chai Tea Latte's made to perfection at mom & pop shops.
"End of the world 'Me'" boxes or messenger bags. XD
Little bitty baby Birds, and all of their precious wisdom.
The babies that have yet to be born. Psychic's in all of their infinite imagination.
Alan Rickman for being 60 and still looking good to me.
All of Jane Austen's books.
Eskimo kisses.
Every single question.
Reaching into the popcorn bowl and coming out with a hand to hold.
Crying with friends.
Ants on a log [peanut butter/celery/raisins-go make one].
The list goes on..
I can't wait to add more to it.
I love you ALL!
Happy Thanksgiving.
<3
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| TODAY WAS BRILLIANT! |
[27 Sep 2007|08:29pm] |
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Went to the beach with my new buddy Kimberly Carr.
Got serenaded by 3 military guys.
Ate the best seafood EVER, for really cheap.
ANDDDDDDD the office season premiere! (eeeee!)
Loved today.
Period.
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| Friends: I realize we find ourselves taking different paths, so please know.. |
[23 Sep 2007|11:26pm] |
Katie B.: That discussion we had the other day about your name, I meant every word. I find myself saying your name since that conversation, and feeling a sense of warmth, happiness, and altogether rightness. Your name comes with such a powerful, wonderful, awesome feeling attached to it. You are really a rare kind of beauty, inside and out. You are so strong, and powerful, and brilliant. I know life is thrusting you towards all sorts of wonderful adventures, and I know you will meet them all with a smile and a witty quip. I love you very much and I hope you know you are in my thoughts everyday.
Shelby S.: You, miss lady, are quite the spirit lifter. There is such a rightness about you, and your dreams, and ideas. You are so fair and just, and yet still so crazy and fun! No moment with you is a dull moment, you make the dreariest, darkest of days seem bright, and hopeful, and cheery. Love, light, and laughter are always with you, and with anyone blessed to be near you. Your intelligence, beauty, sense of humor, strength of character, and unique personality make you a force to be reckoned with. I adore you, and I love you, and I hope you know you are in my thoughts everyday.
Sara G.: Innocent, sweet, kind, bright, fun, delightful, cheerful girl..I know times get tough, and you get on with grace and poise. A smile and a chuckle are never far from you, and you make sure to share the wealth. In all the time I have known you I have never known you to be unjustly cruel, for some reason you are always able to keep your head on straight, even when things get outta hand. You are a tried and true friend, down for whatever, always there, never turn your back on anyone.. I love it when you smile so big it reaches your eyes, and I miss that sight more than most anything. You are so beautiful Sara, in more ways than you know. I love you and I hope you know you are in my thoughts everyday.
Justine H.: Strength and grace is what I see when I look at you. You are probably the kindest soul I have ever met, and also the only one I wouldn't blame for being angry at the world. I know life is hard for you, and I know you hold your chin up anyway. You are making so much for yourself, you are doing so well.. I hope you know how proud I am of you, and how wonderful you really and truely are. You have the gift to turn anything pleasant, you have the gift brighten a room at entrance, you are unique beyond all words of description. I love you very much adn I hope you know you are in my thoughts everyday.
Jimmy E.: You are stronger than you know, brighter than you realize, and kinder than any man I have ever met. You welcome friends into your arms when they need a rest from the crazy world, or need to cry out their angst. You always know when to listen, when to talk, and when to take a friends hand. You are always there, and I don't know what I did to deserve you. You are so beautiful to me Jim, and I love you and I hope you know you are in my thoughts everyday.
Kyle C.: Mister there is more heart in you than in most. I know times get you down, and your home life isn't, and never has been, what it ought to have been, but remember this: your friends can be your home too, and we love you unconditionally. I am so happy that you finally found a girl to mirror your feeling, and give you a sense of belonging. I know you will never be without happiness, excitement, and love, that's just the kinda guy you are. I love you very much and I hope you know you are in my thoughts everyday.
Jacob P.: Jacob, Jacob, Jacob. Sometimes I feel you are taken for granted, by me a lot as well. I think sometimes that you don't want me in your life as your friend, but then I think about all of our conversations, dreams, goals, and I remember you are a kindred spirit. You are someone I know I can always turn to, who always has a loving word, and a wish to make things better. You are so talented, strong, genuine, and sincere.. you make the best of the worst, even when it threatens to take you down. You hold your chin up buddy, I know you will make it. You're the stuff great men are made of. I love you very much and I hope you know you are in my thoughts everyday.
Craig O.: I can here you in my head saying, "All right Miss Sunshine, let's hear it". Our fears, dreams, and aspirations are all eerily close; sometimes I wonder if we weren't cut from the same cloth. There are no words to describe what I feel for you, you are BEYOND words. I know you are gonna make it, and that sounds ambigous I know, but I just know you will in everything. You have determination beyond what I believe to be possible for one so young. You think you can make something happen, and it happens. You, my dear friend, make me envious of the impact you are going to make on this world. You are my hero in more ways than one. I love you very much and hope you know you are in my thoughts everyday.
I guess the point of this ridiculously long, possibly redundant post.. is to remind myself and everyone that despite the fact that we have gone our own ways, and our lives are changing, you all have irrevocably changed my life, and shaped it into what it is, and who I am today. And I am so thankful for the times we have spent together, and for the friendships we have had. This is my way of reaching out to you, and reminding you.
Please never forget.
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| Got a letter today-- |
[08 Sep 2007|09:15pm] |
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A drawing I started over a year and a half ago is going to be displayed at the Arts Center at school..
so long as I can come up with at least 2 more that look as good. (Is what I am told)
Nothing serious, but.. I am happy. Especially considering the fact that I only entered it on a whim of my humanities professor. I dunno why I let her do that to me, but I am glad that I do. On a different, yet similar note--
I am thrilled with my new job, $7.00/hour to scrapbook for someone. It's a two-three month operation, under the table kinda thing. And the scrapbook store this woman found me through offered me a position, on a 'need' basis. Mostly picking up slack, but I like the idea. A little cash would be nice.
School is stressful, 19 credit hours and counting. But I am feeling a bit better, because I actually feel challenged now.
I am feeling very healthy since I have incorporated exercise, an hour per day, in my schedule. I am seeing vast improvements in just the first four weeks and couldn't be happier about my body.
I have become a member of the Fort Walton Beach Methodist Church, and am very excited to have finally found a church family that may help me figure out all of my questions about God, and some about this life.
Starting in October I will be taking a 6 week, build on, ballet class. I have always wanted to do this, and I figured why not now? This world ain't gonna do the things I want for me.
I am looking at getting back in with my volunteer gig, or possibly trying a new route. I think I might like to work with children this go-around, rather than grown women. I think I might do more good at that stage.
I am tossing around the idea of either switching majors, or double majoring, or minoring to/in anthropology. After a couple of discussions with my humanities professors, it is starting to look even more appealing to me.
Oh, and of course, my relationship with Joshua is absolutely thriving. We have never been so happy. We had our rough patch, and we have come out even stronger than we could have ever imagined. He is brilliant, and there is no one else in the world who could captivate me as he does.
All in all, I would have to say that life is brilliant.
END.
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| I have something to say to you my friend.. |
[30 Aug 2007|08:08pm] |
I've been awake for a while now
you've got me feelin like a child now
cause every time i see your bubbly face
i get the tinglies in a silly place
It starts in my toes
makes me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go
The rain is fallin on my window pane
but we are hidin in a safer place
under the covers stayin dry and warm
you give me feelins that i adore
It starts in my toes
makes me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes
i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go
What am i gonna say
when you make me feel this way
I just........mmmmmmmmmmm
It starts in my toes
makes me crinkle my nose
where ever it goes
i always know
that you make me smile
please stay for a while now
just take your time
where ever you go
I’ve been asleep for a while now
You tucked me in just like a child now
Cause every time you hold me in your arms
Im comfortable enough to feel your warmth
It starts in my soul
And I lose all control
When you kiss my nose
The feelin shows
Cause you make me smile
Baby just take your time
Holdin me tight
Where ever, where ever, where ever you go
Where ever, where ever, where ever you go…
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| Ok so.. |
[26 Aug 2007|10:45pm] |
I'm pretty fucking pissed off.
And no I DON'T FUCKING CARE WHAT YOU THINK.
SO FUCK OFF.
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[18 May 2007|07:55pm] |
A week ago I couldn't wait for this coming week..
now, I am dreading it.
it sucks being sick.
Post Script-Congratulations Sara Griffin on your upcoming graduation.
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| Not in your dizziest day dream.. |
[12 May 2007|08:59am] |
Ok.
Up till 4:45a.m., or later, with my sick grandmother.
Woke up at 7:00a.m. to make my grandfather's breakfast.
Took my grandmother to the E.R.
Missed my Summer course orientations.
Came home when my uncle finally made it to the E.R.
Now I am on my way back.
That shall explain my absence for the day.
END.
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| Every little heart beat. |
[11 May 2007|11:01pm] |
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there ain't no reasons things are this way
its how they've always been and they intend to stay
i can't explain why we live this way
we do it everyday
preachers on the podiums speaking to saints
prophets on the sidewalks begging for change old ladies laughing from the fire escape, cursing my name
i got a basket full of lemons and they all taste the same
a window and a pigeon with a broken wing
you can spend your whole life working for something
just to have it taken away
people walk around pushing back their desks
wearing pay checks like necklaces and bracelets
talking 'bout nothing, not thinking about their
every little heart beat, every little breath
people walk a tight rope on a razor's edge
carrying their hurt and hatred and weapons
it could be a bomb or a bullet or a pin
or a thought or a word or a sentence.
there ain't no reasons things are this way
its how they've always been and they intend to stay
i don't know why i say the things i say,
but i say them anyway.
but love will come set me free
love will come set me free
i do believe
love will come set me free
i know it will
love will come set me free
yes
prison walls still standing tall
some things never change at all
keep on building prisons,
gonna fill them all.
keep on building bombs
gonna drop them all
working your fingers bare to the bone
breaking your back, make you sell your soul
like a lung is filled with coal, suffocating slow
the wind blows wild and i may move
but politicians lie and i'm not fooled
you don't need no reason or a 3 piece suit
to argue the truth
the air in my skin and the world under my toes
labor is stitched into the fabric of my toes
chaos and commotion wherever i go
love, i try to follow
but love will come set me free
love will come set me free
i do believe
love will come set me free
i know it will
love will come set me free
yes
there ain't no reasons things are this way
its how they've always been and they intend to stay
i can't explain why we live this way;
we do it everyday.
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| The Man Without a Face.. |
[09 May 2007|01:48am] |
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..is without a doubt one of the most amazing movies ever. I have watched it about half a million times, and it only gets better, richer, deeper, more moving. If you haven't seen it, or haven't heard of it, I beg you, speed to Blockbuster and rent it. I guarantee if you have any heart at all you will fall in love as I have, and you will probably go on to buy it, and watch it so many times you know it backwards and forwards. I don't care what anyone says, it doesn't hurt to have passion for things you love. Even if they are just movies, music, or books. Watch, listen, read, over and over again. Let yourself fall in love time after time. There is scarce better than reliving beautiful moments, or adventures, or intrigues, or thick plots! I feel good tonight, I feel alive and in love. Good night. END.
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| do the Calorie dance. |
[06 May 2007|11:16pm] |
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fuck this shit.
for reeal.
Happy Birthday Amadeus Hill.
I like my world
of fantasy
better than reality.
is that so bad?
Well mannered frivolity.
Does such a thing exist?
ice cubes=yummy snack.
fraternize with the enemy--
you might learn a thing or two.
I want a red beaded bracelet.
END.
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| Butterfly. |
[02 May 2007|12:49am] |
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you are like a butterfly,
a catipillars dream to fly.
so burst out of this old cocoon,
and dry your wings off.
Butterfly--
go ahead and fly.
it's always such a lonely loom,
it's sudden like a broken bone.
and your luck won't always come along,
so dry your tears away.
Butterfly--
go ahead and fly.
dry your tears away,
Butterfly--
don't you cry.
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| What will your mind achieve? |
[26 Apr 2007|08:14pm] |
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I discovered a blackberry bush in my garden today..
I was immediately thrilled.
Children have this mechanism in them that leads them
to berries and flowers.
In a few months my garden will be swarmed with children!
&& I would love to share my berries & flowers with them.
What use is a garden if you cannot give joy?
On a completely different note..
I want to take this chance to applaude Eliza for standing up for her beliefs.
For not standing around and letting something she did not believe in,
something that was potentially dangerous,
happen.
We can't depend on others to get things done, if we do, nothing will.
Sometimes we have to be outraged.
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| Maybe it's a too-muh. |
[25 Apr 2007|04:31pm] |
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So today is my little brother's birthday.
Happy Birthday Tyler Scott.
Took me 20 minutes to ace my Earth Science Exam today.
Woo.
My Great-Aunt Margaret, and her daughter (whatever she is to me ??) Cheryl, are coming to visit this Saturday!
I am really excited, so excited in fact that I cleaned the porch, made a cake, and cut the grass.
On the way to the Post Office today (to get stamps) I listened to Johnny Cash, and decided that I can sing better
than him.
Though not better than Patsy Cline, (who was on the radio next) she's got me beat.
I hate Girlfriend by Avril Lavigne, but I cannot stop listening to it.
Makes for good "dance around your room angry" music. I love talking into the fan. END.
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| heart. broken. |
[20 Apr 2007|12:03am] |
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so we all have come to terms, or will eventually, that we are not God's gift to men.
that we are not the end all, be all beauty.
that we have our features, we are beautiful in our own way; but the most beautiful creature in the world?
no, we are not.
but you think, when you fall in love..that changes.
Wrong.
you know that feeling you get when you put on your homecoming, or prom dress?
that beautiful dress that you stressed out over for months..
that perfect dress, in the perfect fit, and the perfect color, that makes you look fabulous?
with the matching shoes, and the beautiful make up artistry?
oh and don't forget the hair!
your hair is wisped up in a beautiful arrangement of curls, and pins..
the first time you look at yourself in the mirror, and you catch sight of yourself..
before you walk down those stairs, or into the living room, and everyone gasps.
before you have seen any other girl, in any other dress, with any other hair do.
before you admitt to yourself that there is any other beautiful woman on the face of the Earth.
you. feel. stunning.
you know that feeling?
that's what it feels like to be in love.. at first.
It took me a long time to realize that that feeling I described, was smoke in the mirrors.
it was fabricated in my mind.
it took me even longer to realize, that when he said those things to shatter that feeling, he wasn't lying, he was merely telling me a truth never before mentioned.
it took me until now to realize...he gave me no reason to think that that feeling was true.
I was wrong for being upset.. but he tore my world apart.
I was wrong.
How can that be right?
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